"In the air, on top of a tram, a girl is sitting. Her dress, lifted
a little, blows out. But a block in the traffic separates us. The tramcar
glides away, fading like a nightmare.
Moving in both directions, the street is full of dresses which sway,
offering themselves airily, the skirts lifting; dresses which lift and
yet do not lift.
In the tall and narrow shop mirror I see myself approaching, rather
pale and heavy-eyed. It is not a woman I want -- it is all women. And
I seek for them in those around me, one by one ...
Defeated, I follow my impulse casually. I followed a woman who had been
watching me from her corner.
[ . . . ]
We said a few words; she took me home with her ... Then I went through
the banal scene. It passed like a sudden hurtling down.
Again, I am on the pavement, and I am not at peace as I had hoped. An
immense confusion bewilders me. I see too deep and too much."

